Life is such a trip

Mon, 12/31/2012 - 23:24 — Carrie

My birthday is just about exactly halfway through the year, so each New Years and Birthday I take the time to reflect on the year that's passed and consider how the next year will go. I like that I do it every half year.

This past year has been insane. So much has happened. In some ways it's been the best year of my life, and in some ways it's been the worst. It was the best Summer, but probably the worst Fall. But even the Fall has had some things in it that make me say it was pretty awesome. I've grown in ways this year that I didn't even know I had to grow. I've had some pretty awesome experiences and some pretty crappy experiences. I've done some things I'm ashamed of and some things I'm pretty darn proud of. I've shared with people, laughed with people, cried with people. I've made some amazing new friends, and lost some old friends. I've been hurt and blessed, happy and sad, cried my eyes out and laughed until I cried. I don't know if I can say it's been a good year, but there have been some pretty darn good times in it. Time to look ahead to 2013.

Most times when I do that I can have a pretty good idea of where I'll be in a year. Last year at this time I would have told you that I would still be in an apartment with my roommate, I'd still be nannying for A, D and S, and I'd still be studying Deaf Studies at my college in Worcester. I probably would have mentioned a few more small things, some of which ended up being true and some of which weren't quite, but overall I would have been able to predict quite accurately where I would be today. Of course one never knows for sure, and there was certainly no guarentee I'd be here, but I had no plans to the contrary.

This year it's different. I know for a fact that I have no idea where I'll be this time next year. I want to be going to college... somewhere. I don't know where yet, and I don't know if I'll live on campus or in an apartment. To be honest I don't even know for sure that I'll get accepted to one of the colleges I'm applying to, so maybe I'll be moving somewhere random and attending an online college. I know I want to move, but I don't know quite how that will work out.

So it's with excitement and a bit of trepidation that I look forward to the coming year. So many possibilities lie before me. I can't wait to get to the end of the year and look back on it and see where I am. I'm excited for this great trip called life. Cause life is such a trip. Tiny little insignificant details can change the entire course of your life and you never know what detail it will be until you look back. I love that. Love the sponteneuity that life is. Even when it sucks and serves you a horrible turn, I still love life. And I love getting to live it. Getting to make these decisions and plan things even if they don't pan out.

So where will I be in a year? I have no freakin' clue. A few months ago I wanted certain things that have since slipped completely out of my grasp. Giving up dreams is never easy but new dreams come along. I found a quote recently that i loved. "Sometimes on the way to one dream we get lost and end up finding a completely new one." I don't think that's an exact quote, but you get the idea. ^_^ *makes mental note to look up quote and find later* But life is exciting. So many twists and turns and we never know for sure where we'll end up. I'm excited about this year. Hope it's a good one. Smile

Life is such a trip.


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